I would still tolerate a bad decision for me than the rigors of self judgement. And my argument in defense is if I have survived so far and so long with these attributes, I would rather not change. God knows what change would do. Yet, I do acknowledge that quite unknowingly, it is change that has crept in somewhat quietly in my life and been reason enough for my survival so far. So in a sense I succumb to fate and luck and the stars and occult or whatever it is that guides us supernaturally. But surely, that cannot be the mantra for life. Life, through ages of sane and sage existence has extolled the virtues of karma. Do your karma. The rest will be taken care of. But everyone does his or her karma with equal diligence and effort and yet there is inequality. So what is it that pushes one forward and the other behind.
We have never been able to answer adequately on this. And when we have no adequate answers we rest back on and take refuge with, forces unknown and unseen. They could be manifestations of what or who we believe in in worship and prayer. Or they could be beliefs more practical. Somehow, somewhere we leave the final decision to another. If it is not happening to us there must be reason and cause for it and that that reason and cause is not to be questioned. If we had an answer, we would get a finite result. If we are not, then it is best left to infinity. Or divinity. Whoever gives us a decision !!
So. Do my travails with indecision rest somewhere in the above ??
What would you think ? Feel like sharing it with me ?
Much love and care and all else that is bright and beautiful, to you -
Amitabh Bachchan
